October 30, 2015
Yesterday I spent the afternoon and evening crawling all over my favorite cliffs in Sedona, filming a brand new from-the-heart (not to mention ancient memory) video project. It should be up either tonight or tomorrow.
I've been meaning to make this for months, but now is when it finally comes together.
When the veil is thin.
At the end of October.
As I recorded the words coming through me a few days ago, as a backdrop for the deeply steeped images like this one I'm including below, I closed my eyes, deepened my breathing, felt my lungs trembling and my heart racing as I dredged up old, old thoughts about love, equality, betrayal...
During filming yesterday, I walked under flashing lightning with my tiny crew (wouldn't want it any other way) across the mountain ridge right next to a valley cut by the very river you see below. A great big storm had rolled in as we packed the props we would with us - actual sacred spirit-science instruments I use in my individual meddlings.
As my hair whipped and I felt great big living (but not quite visible) things twisting and dancing in the sky above, I asked my director and deeply respected soul sister Iskra whether we should cancel. Iskra I connected with years before this, over the dance of life, spirits in flesh all watching the show together, and now it appears to be the time we are co-creating together. Such an upgrade for my offerings to the world...
She looked back at me with those crazy eyes only geniuses have and that only shine through in moments like this.
"Oh yes," she said. "I'm so excited. This is going to be perfect."
So I pulled on a pair of leggings to wear under my dress and located some faux fur fingerless gloves to wear between takes.
I could do this.
(The funny thing is, I was NEVER cold while we were actually filming. Something else came through me and made my only experience of life full focus, intention, attempted grace while walking across mad sharp terrain in bulky boots and soggy skirts, and authenticity regarding that which was willing to come through me, finally. I was only cold while we were in between takes, setting up cameras, scouting locations. Then again, that's also when I got to look around at the very rarely wet and glowing landscape, connecting with Sedona too and inviting her to share her beauty with you as you watch the art, through what we were creating. And in those moments, I was too thrilled and grateful to be grumpy and cold...)
We strolled through caves, lit candles by the river, walked over what used to be a path and is now an entirely new landscape after last spring's floods, and made something that I can't even watch now without feeling my own heart flip a little.
Something about it scares me. I didn't intend for it to be scary. But you know, concepts and all considered, I suppose it is a scary thing, if you want to see it that way.
My hope is that this creation serve as a way to crack through fears we all have about magic and other such paranormal stuff, and unite us all as people with hearts, with minds, with a divine purpose, and always, with love.